Alone

So Matt and Riley went to Kansas last night to go camping with friends. Yes, I was invited, but couldn't go per my doctor's orders due to the pregnancy issues.
I don't think I fell asleep til after 1am last night and then I woke up like every 30 minutes. I HATE being alone in my bedroom (at the back of the house) at night. Even with Laney asleep peacefully next to me. Even with the alarm set. Even with my pistol next to the bed. Even with half the lights in the house on. Even with my cell phone right next to me on my pillow. Every little noise wakes me up and I lay there and worry about what it was. Why did the new neighbor have to wait until the weekend my husband is gone to have late night company? Why does the motion detector light out front have to turn on every time the wind blows tonight?
I could get by on my own if I had to, but the nights would be absolute hell.
Laney and I have had a busy day. We left the house around 8am to go to the Czech Festival out in Yukon, my "home" town. We stayed there til around noon, came home, did about a bajillion loads of laundry. Then Laney went to visit G-pa for a few hours and I went out for sushi with my friend Keri. (Thank God, one pregnancy craving out of my system for a while!!) Now we are home and Laney is asleep on the couch. I got all my pillows and blankets and drug them out to the living room. I should be exhausted, but I don't think I could go to sleep right now if I tried. Maybe I'll find some movie I've already seen 25 times on cable. I may resort to a Benedryl so I can actually get some restful sleep tonight.
This poor baby...much more walking than I'm supposed to be doing right now at the Czech Festival this morning, his/her first taste of sushi, a mom that can't/won't sleep and another dose of Benedryl! What a day/night/weekend!
Here's to Matt and Riley coming home safely and quickly and life returning to normal by tomorrow afternoon. Yea!